April 16, 2012 jennyrain

Monday Weigh In | Dying to Self

“He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose.” Jim Elliott, October 28, 1949.

This last week of my life has been very reflective.

Yet not as much reflective of “self” as of attempting to wrap my mind around what God has in store for this next season of my career.

Last week I made an exciting announcement and this time next week, I will have just completed my first day at the new job and I am thrilled… reflective… attempting to be preparative in my heart.

Am I ready for this challenge Lord?

Are You already there waiting for me?

How can I best prepare to meet You there Lord?

All of these questions require that I get my mind off of myself and onto God.

This weight-loss journey I have been on for the last three months has been a wild ride that has impacted every single area of my life… yet I never thought that a simple journey to lose weight could have been intricately connected to God doing something major occupationally in my life.

See, I have this bunch of suits from years past.

Suits are the required dress code for my new job. Not a single one of these suits fit three months ago, but since I wasn’t wearing them in my current job, I was not too concerned.

The day before my interview I grabbed a suit out of the very back of my closet – and because I had worked and prayed so hard to lose weight – it fit perfectly.

I didn’t have to purchase a thing.

I didn’t have to stress out about what I was going to wear.

Everything I needed was already waiting for me.

To me, it is MIND-BLOWING to think that God knew this months ago, and so took the time to prepare even my body for the clothing I would need. My pastor says “His guidance of us is staggering!” and I concur. God truly does clothe the lilies of the field…

I’m at 118.5.

Exactly 1.5 pounds away from my goal of 117 where I will be able to fit into the remainder of my suits. A goal that three months ago had nothing to do with needing to fit into a wardrobe for my new job.

God can be trusted. That is what I am learning. I can trust God. With everything. He is trustworthy, and good, and mighty, and he cares about the tiniest details of my life.


I can set down my agenda, my plans, my fears and my failures before His throne… and He will redeem them. I can give Him my life, and He will show me how to direct my feet. I can die in service to others – in His name – and find life, REAL life.

Because God is good. And God can be trusted… my life is safe in His hands.

He who has found his life will lose it, and he who has lost his life for My sake will find it. Matthew 10.39

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I break things and trip a lot. I like to chase things like dreams, goals, ideas, and raindrops. I create things with words. Writing has been an outlet since I first discovered the magic empty space of a journal. Words dance around in my brain and often land amidst scraps of paper, find their way into journals, or etch themselves into blinking pixels. I hope my words fall like rain on tender souls in need of refreshing. Finding photos in random moments helps me share stories. During a trip to Africa the perfect trifecta of my first DSLR, mission trip, and dream-location happened and my love of photography became a reality. I'm currently writing my first book, "Will They Laugh if I Call You Daddy: Growing up with 2 Dads in an Evangelical World," I'm a board member for One Million Kids, and I believe that every kid of an LGBT parent should have an opportunity to #ChangeTheConversation with their story. My bio remains in process because I am.

Comments (10)

  1. Christian Jones

    Beautiful post <3 Congratulations on both of your accomplishments!

  2. Gina @ Gigi Marie Photography

    WOW- incredible changes happening for you- SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! 

  3. amy

    God is so incredible. And the fact that He shows us these things?? He loves us so much. I am so thrilled for you! God is MOVING!! It’s so inspirational to read.

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