Sooooo I’ve decided to take a bloggity break until after Ross & Laurie‘s wedding on October 20.
Not a photography break – because thanks to Marirosa – I have lots of fall weddings to shoot, yay! Nope, just a blogging break.
The last 3 years I have worked hard to establish this platform. I’ve worked hard in the last 2 to grow my craft of photography. I’ve worked hard to nurture creative expression which is my second core value. I will miss this “safe space” that I have to share, to create, and to be inspired by each of you.
Quite honestly, work is consuming my life and my energy right now, and I am not sure how to balance everything.
I feel like I’m in a battle for 12 hours every day and at the end of the day, I’m tired, cranky, and need to spend any extra intellectual ability I have to continue learning so that I can adapt to this new space I’m in. This has not been an easy season, heck, this has not been an easy year.
I’m questioning if the move was a wise decision. I’m questioning why God allowed me to move if he knew I would be this.stinkin.stressed out. I’m questioning if I’m in the right place. And I’m really questioning why God would bring me to a place only to drop me there and let me fail miserably.
But He knew. He allowed it. And at the end of the day He is still God, and still in charge, He has the right to give and take away, and He is most definitely still good. And by the grace of God, at the end of the day I still am who I am, success or failure, job or no job. And in those amazing truths I rest.
Now, lest you think all is lost, John has been a champ through this whole thing.
He and I started looking to buy a new house and I couldn’t be more thrilled about it. He has been ah-mazing as I’ve plodded through this murky season of my life. He has supported me, been a shoulder to cry on (like, you know every.single.day), and has come through in every way possible.
Had I not had this season of utter failure… I’m not sure if I would have seen this side of my husband.
And that realization? Is SO worth it.
So please forgive me while I sign off for a few months to take care of business (literally, oye), and invest in my IRL world. I will be back.